my sites
Mood:  lazy
Topic: My Life
http://lonelyandlovely.tripod.com/
http://lala-the-vixen.tripod.com/
http://ladymimete.tripod.com/
go to these sites!

Mood:  irritated
my so called "boyfriend's friends" IMed me talkin all this shit 2 me and it got me super pissed and since i got a history wit bein called all that crap it pissed me off alot so i dont kno weitha 2 cut him or not cuz i love 2 cause pain 2 othas 2 make myself happy i dont kno why i need advice and hate him alot and i aint talkin 2 him at the moment
this dude dont understand the shit i went through 4 him, i got yelled at, my life threatened, i almost killed myself ova him i mean damn i kno he did stuff 4 me but shit it dont show i been through so much shit 4 him and i dont mean 2 brag about it but damn i wish i had some respect from him w/e im out peace out

Mood:  don't ask
Topic: nuttin
im bored so bored im makin a video about my life maybe ill put it on my website maybe if im not bored ot tired or hungry maybe

Mood:  chillin'
Topic: My Life
I just published my new website!!! yayers 4 me!
go to lonelyandlovely.tripod.com check out my site it is so awesome!!!!!!! thanx much!!!

so lonely
Mood:  sad
Topic: My Life
i miss matthew
wat should i do?
we're separated
and i hate it
i wanna see him again
i wanna be wit him
i wanna be near him hold him feel him
but i cant
dammit
this is so unfair
love is in the air
but i cant see it
instead i feel it
the only love i feel
that is foreal
is the love from matthew
yes i love matthew
yea i need matthew
i finally have matthew but i cant always be wit him
this is just plain torture
it hurts me so bad
gets me so mad
its true love does hurt
i wish it didnt
i wish it wouldnt
.....im left speechless from the pain
i got tired of screamin his name
i want him to hear me and help me escape
he hears me but he cant help me
he wants to and trys but to no use
soon i will hopefully awake and this will all be a dream
then finally me and matt can be free

Torture from you (in english)
Topic: My Writingz
All this hate
All this sadness
my lonesome fate
is just pure madness
i try to maintain a steady voice
as i walk past your evil look
i speak my feelings and made my choice
you laugh at me and what i say becuz u kno what u took
i feel so weak as i saw ur technique,
made me shriek
how could u do this to me?
leave me alone
im not somethin to be owned
u broke my heart
by rippin it apart
dont mess with my head
your voice i dread
stop it im already dead
dammit u made me dead

Tortura de Usted (Torture from you) i put it in spanish becuz i love writing in spanish
Mood:  hug me
Topic: My Writingz
Intento mantener una voz constante como camino paso su malvado mire
hable mi mente ehice mi opcion que usted se rie de mi y que digo
Porque usted sabe lo que usted tomo Me siento vi su technica
hecho me chillido
como podria usted hacer esto a mi
idejene solo!
No soy algo ser poseido
Usted rompio mi corasan rasgandolo aparte
no ensucie con mi cabez
su voz que temo
parelq que soy muerto
dammit usted me hizo a muertos

Mood:  don't ask
Topic: My Writingz
Me and him dont talk
we just keep on walking
farther and farther away from each other
after i pushed him away he came back.....just to push back
pushing me far away from him
although i still care
i cant stand this despair
i dont wanna walk away
but he wont let me stay
i feel hurt
i feel sad
i feel broken and mad
this is what i get for letting my emotions get in the way
more days of pain
more days of shame
more days, days of sadness and these insane days
while i sit wit my friends i think of u
how did i turn out to be such a fool?
its hurtin me, this pain this misery
Misery. Sweet Misery

Mood:  not sure
Topic: My Writingz
If you really loved me you wouldn't have left me
you told me I was your everything then you ditched me
why'd you leave?
your confusing me by refusing me
you say you love me, then why wont u come back to me?
you say your longing to be wit me then deny me when i ask you to come back and love me
waste of time baby your still on my mind
stop playin around make a choice
speak your mind let me hear your voice
stop messin wit my head
you've already hurt me bad
dont do it again
come back and be wit me
i feel like im beggin 4 ur lovin which i am, im doin this to prove that i want you to love me again
again u say "no" i feel broken down rundown im about to break down to the ground im about to drown tears consume me
see what u do to me? makin me weak makin me so sad
and yet i still want u back so bad

lost
Mood:  blue
Topic: My Life
im on vacation 4 a whole week, thats means im not able to see matthew (my man) 4 a week i love him so much and i hate it when im not around him o well knwoing he belongs to me and no one else makes me happy but i still feel sad